Wow! What a week, right? Yea, it’s been a crazy one for me and it’s only Tuesday! I honestly don’t think my emotions can’t handle anymore. It all exploded after my workout tonight.
This is what I looked like. Not pretty right? But honestly, who cares. I totally broke down. I’m was done. Exhausted – mentally, physically and emotionally.
First, I’ve got a TON going on at my full time job. I’m in the middle of my normal monthly project and then an even bigger project gets thrown in. I mean, it’s one where you’d have to drop everything if you got an email. This one…mental stress.
Then, in the wake of what happened in Las Vegas, I was literally torn apart. No, I didn’t know anyone attending the concert, but honestly I don’t think that matters. The fact that this event even took place is devastating for anyone. I’ve been to Las Vegas and loved it. I’ve stayed at Mandalay Bay before. I’ve been to outdoor concerts. I have never had something this awful happen in my life. However, the fact that it CAN happen, scares the crap out of me. Over the past few days so many questions have been running through my mind (and I’m sure yours too) but some of them I can’t answer. All I can do is tell my loved ones how much I love them and give them all hugs next time I see them. This one…emotional stress.
Lastly, tonight’s workout was a challenging one. It was the last straw, if you will. Tonight we (my husband/accountability partner/workout buddy) did a 45 minute kickboxing workout. It’s one of my favorites because the music gets you amped, the moves are fun to do because they make you feel like a true fighter and at the end, you’re sweating buckets. It might not be the workout for everyone, but it’s the workout for me. There are a few tracks that literally leave you breathless. Like crazy breathing. Out your ears breathing. Whenever I do this workout, it makes me think back to 5 years ago when I first started my journey. Back then, I would have never been able to get through this workout without pausing the DVD. This one was not only physical stress but it was emotional stress too.
So what do I do with all this stress? Well, I could do a few things:
• I could cry my eyes out every day.
• I could bottle it up and just harbor all that energy.
• I could decide not to leave my house because it’s too scary of world out.
• I could go see someone and get things off my chest.
Granted, I do the first one maybe once a month but that’s not so fun. Harboring energy, whether good or bad energy is never a good thing so I think I’ll pass on that one. Leaving my house is just not an option. But, I can get help. And listen, it’s not a bad thing to ask for help. It might feel like you’re failing, but trust me…you’re not. Getting help is one of the best things you can do for yourself because it’s part of self-care. There are many, many people out there that swear by therapy because you’re getting feedback from unbiased parties. It can be as simple as that.
So has your week been stressful like mine? If so, how are you handling it? Stress management can happen in a variety of ways and I love to hear what you’re doing to get through it. Leave me a comment and share! You just might be helping someone else in the process.