My self doubt is real. Not all the time, but sometimes it creeps in and sometimes it’s terrifying.
Do you have self doubt? Do you have self doubt and not even realize it? You might not.
If I’m being totally vulnerable here, my self doubt is a process I’m working through. From the outside, my world looks great – I have a home, a car, a husband, two cats that I adore, a good job, a bunch of friends and my schedule is always jam packed. But you probably don’t know what’s going on on the inside. Most of the time, I’m never going to let you see me sweat. Only a core group of people are going to see that and they are even going to see it only when I have to let them.
I think I have self doubt for a lot of reasons but mainly because I’m a perfectionist, I’m super loyal I never want to intentionally hurt other people. Even as a kid, I was like this. Ask anyone who knew me growing up.
Today, when I have a decision to make, I still struggle. I sit on it, toy with the possible outcomes, do a bunch of research and sometimes ask for others’ for their opinions. And weeks later, I make the decision. Yes, even for simple things like buying new socks. For others this is totally strange, but for me, this is normal. Others might make a decision and only after the decision is made does the self doubt kick in and make them question what they just did.
I only realized I truly had self doubt after listening to the internal discussions in my head. It’s like there’s an angel and a devil up there and they are in constant conversation. The only time they stop is when I go for reiki or therapy. True statement. If this sounds like you, here’s your challenge…
**LISTEN TO THEM!**
Yes, I am totally encouraging you to have internal conversations with yourself. I promise, this is totally normal. And when you hear them talking, force yourself to be the unbiased party that adds to the conversation. Listen to what each is encouraging you to do, take note of what they’re saying and try to make a decision for yourself. It’s going to take time, but after awhile, you’re going to start to hear the self doubt.
Once you learn you have self doubt, what do you do next to deal with it? Personal development. Read books, listen to books on tape, listen to podcasts, watch TED talks…there’s a million ways to start but I just want you to start. Personal development is what helped me hear the self doubt and start to make my own decisions. It will help you do the same. You’re going to need to give it time, work at it and not give up. If you need somewhere to start, I highly suggest grabbing Jen Sincero’s book You Are A Badass. It’s an amazingly fun read and will help you get in gear and start believing in yourself and getting rid of that self doubt.
Now, share your self doubt story with me. You’re not alone and I want you to know that. Comment below or send me a message. Sharing your story is part of your journey and it’s an important one.